RADIATE LOVE

I think I would die without my tumblr. But I will not have very much internet access for the next four days.. man it’s going to suckkkkk.

Recently I’ve had a weird obsession with Miley Cyrus.. haha I don’t know why! But I’m going to Idaho tomorrow; which means NO INTERNET. Unless I want to use my grandparents dinosaur computer when they are gone because they won’t let us until late because it plugs up the phone line… I remember those days. But there is no way in hell that thing will be able to load youtube videos:( haha it’s sad how much time I spend on the internet but oh well. At least it will be hot there and it’s really peaceful so I should just take it as a time to relax away from everything.

I feel so lost right now. I feel like everything is changing. Or maybe I am? I don’t know why but for the last month, I’ve gone through sometimes bad depression. And I was not having happy thoughts that’s for sure. I just feel like a big part of my life is missing. And I’m supposed to figure out what it is. And my family has been kind of strange, like things just aren’t working. But today was a whole lot better for that. And I actually spent some quality time with my dad which was nice because it’s rare and it was pretty funny. And I got hang out with my brother too, who is pretty much my life saving hero for many reasons.

I can’t believe summer is about half way over. This is the time when I’m supposed to start summer reading which never happens.. try to do some of those things on my summer list of things to do. Which usually doesn’t happen either.. but hopefully I will start that soon. I’ve been doing fun things, but this summer just feels different to me.. like we are all really growing up. And it’s kind of scary but really exciting at the same time. I just need to figure out my life right now and try my hardest to stay happy like I have the past few days.